Don't Wanna Miss This; It Feels Like It's Christmas.

With Christmas being a week away and snow infesting this city, I've been trying to really get into that holiday festive cheer... and to be honest, It just isn't happening. I'm telling you guys, I'm just a Scrooge type of character around this time of the year no matter how hard I try lol. BUT, it'll be over after next week and then this year will be over the week after and all this money spending fuckery will finally be over; now this shit right here makes me wanna dance in the snow.


P & I finally got some decorating done on our Christmas tree and I gotta finish shopping for gifts this week. Not only do I have to get the gift list done, I've got to prepare for our big Christmas dinner jam coming up next week. Then there's New Years and then my birthday.... my parents just couldn't wait to have me during the Summer eh, so inconsiderate of them. I JOOOoooke.


December has only begun but within the first couple of weeks I've really grown to appreciate and accept things in my life. You know, if I were to write a wish list to Santa, I'd ask him to keep my friends happy, to shelter them from pain, for nothing but straight honesty and loyalty for me, for strength and courage when life throws unexpected shit my way and nothing but good karma and well wishes for my family, my girls, my friends and you. I wish you all the ability to appreciate the simplicity of waking up for tomorrow, for breathing tonight and for remembering all your yesterdays.


I am really thankful for those I've met this year; for those I've had an opportunity to grow with as friends; for the memories I've been able to make; and for my girls, who stay with me every year - more trustworthy and loyal as the years go by. I would like to think that I've been lucky thus far.. I want more. Give me more.


Three weeks today, I will be a year older. It's kind of depressing; bitter sweet if anything. I can't wait to grow and be the woman I'm meant to be but at the same time, I don't wanna ever lose the amount of fun and party and bullshit I'm experiencing now. When I look back, I'll smile at all the shit I've done and smile with no regrets - I should take some time out of my busy life schedule to print pictures and make photo albums, huh? I shall look into that. Anyways, the annual fuckery fest will probably take place. Where, when and what to expect has yet come to mind.. but my selective few will definitely find out as soon as I find out.


I've been slacking on my blogs lately, but could you blame me? It's the fucking holidays and I've been so busy with everything - I promise it'll pick up after New Years. 2011 will be filled with shananigans, life morals and dram, as it has been with each passing year; I just hope I don't repeat the same bullshit with the same bulls, naaahh'm sayin??






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How could I not end it off with this? :)
All I want for Christmas is youuuuuuuuuuuu..

Forever Mine.

Life is an amazing thing. I can proudly say that I am fortunately blessed with the things that I have in my life. I have my irreplaceable family and relatives that has seen me go through hell and back at least a good hundred times; I have my sisters that have my back through thick and then, good times and bad times, fights and love, everything; my friends that bring me many memories, smiles and happiness; and my presence in this world alone is precious.


Going through life without any support or love is your choice, but I will tell you something, it's better with good people. Every thing that you come across as an obstacle or as a great thing, to have someone there with you to support you and tell you that they are proud of you... it's a whole new thing that no one should miss out on. You are an amazing human being that deserves the world and the galaxy.


With that being said, in the end, all you have is yourself. When all is lost, when your friends and family are not there; you must learn to depend on yourself. You're strength, you're mentality, you're abilities, you're life, you're future is all in your hands. You are in control of your future and you're destiny. Never doubt yourself. What you think and say is not wrong.. do not conform to what they say is right.. why draw within the lines? Get messy, scribble.. society fears anyone that is willing to dare and express themselves.


I love everyone and everything that is in my life, but I love myself the most; flaws and all. Today, I attended a great function at Pleasure and Pain Tattoo. Ink for heart, where half of the proceeds went to the heart and stroke foundation, where people of all kinds came together to receive $40 tattoos and $20 piercings, where there was smiles, love and support all day. I got my first tattoo today,"forever" on my ring finger. What does it represent? My ring finger and I are forever mine, before any man, and whoever I marry (the luckiest dude alive).. I expect forever. Scary? Then run.


I am happy with my choice, my family, my friends and my life. Are you?
If not, make a move and get yourself there.. because I promise you, It is the greatest feeling in the world.






I feel invincible. I am on top of the world. Come meet me there.




To you niggas bitin my flows and my subject matter,
You'll never be me partner, So it dont fuckin matter.

Friday Night Lights.

Quick and simple post;



I just died and went to hip hop heaven. Amazing flow.. raw shit..
If you haven't listened, y'all slacking.
If you haven't gotten it, y'all sleeping.

Wake up.



So good to hear Aaliyah again..♥

In The Morning.

Is it logical to miss something that was never yours? Memories, feelings and thoughts you sometimes wish never happened to begin with for your own peace in mind; fighting to forcefully rid it all from within you, knowing that it needs to be done, knowing that a part of you still doesn't want to. How do you stop yourself from feeling anything when the source of it all is in plain sight? I want things around me that aren't doing any good for me, call me a masochist. The last time I felt a spark with giddiness, I was sixteen.. sucks that I gotta let this one go. Have you ever seen the movie, Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind? Pretty much how I feel sometimes... Oh well.


On a happier note; Big shout out to Ms Ladyluck, recently celebrating her 21st *ahem* birthday. Doing it big every year, once again at Tattoo in Toronto. The memories of ridiculous nights out and bad mornings after can go on for days. No one throws parties out in Toronto like she does, step it up people!









Also, I wanna shout out my girl KC; You guys aint seen a female flow until you seen her go... the way this girl spits makes me wanna marry her.
Take a peek;

"brain matter splattered as she speak full powered, clocked thoughts shatter with every hour as she devour week minded cowards kush clouds mellow mouths sour, always put a best foot forward so ya next step is the best step get it thru ur head, rest - aint what come to term success, u bet and ull get what u get, holdin my breath with my eyes on death, walkin straight past, im on the get backs, jet packs, im on retro like jetsons go go KC gadget, wet one release kase'ings to cap. some straight to the dome like a bio reaction under da fitted with the T-shirt caption Load the mother ship, This is ur captain pimped up, hoe down, n homie is slackin dont botha with sideways mackin, always frontin like dey aint actin as if im da only one worth havin i see beyond weak game, so refrain brethren, listen, sexy nor baby's my name, n u wastin my time aint get us no gain, i need a slick daddy who aint work my brain, everythin he b doin i be doin same, neva wear a collar but im rockin some chains, n jus cuz i lead dont mean that ill stray im a boss bitch, i wont shit where i lay, so i might not sit if im told to stay i work for my money and it works for me neva let much get in between we, n if he down to roll, we can make a squeeze, happily, be the best of threes he with i and i with she, til he see she with me, jealousy all for one, and one for all, please ill still love her even if he leaves."



Follow her rhymes in her mind @ SUMM - A - SOULTICE


BIG UPS TO MY HOMIES! BIG UP TO MY GIRLS!
BIG UP TO MY HATERS & THE CREEPERS IN MY WORLD!

Next blog will be better, gotta go get mines.

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Can I hit in the mornin', the sun rise while you moanin'..

The Best Has Yet To Come.

It's getting close to that time of year! I'm surprised that, with the early snow fall from last weekend, no one has gone crazy with that early Christmas spirit; the later it comes, the less of a bitch I'll be hahaha. Starting my list up already, I don't want to get caught up in that mass hysteria found in all malls during mid-December... those days make me want to hurt people, but obviously I dooon't!


I'll tell you what I am looking forward to this holiday season; turkey christmas dinner! This year we'll host dinner at our place with the girls and the guys. I miss all my girls.. I miss us all at one place, drunk with happiness, stories for days and memories in the making for our future tomorrows.


Ladies, we've come so far. We haven't been able to spend as much time together as before but we all know our sisterhood is concrete. We're all doing different things but we're not far from each other, which I like; and I just wanted to say that I love you all to pieces and I'm very proud of what you've all accomplished as a person, in school and in work. You guys are my irreplaceables and I can't wait until we're old milfs laughing back at our ridiculous adventures and wild nights.


For those who think I'm a total grinch, there are some things I like about the holidays... such as the first snow fall, lightly covering the city, mainly at night; the jazz compositions and soft crooning from Michael Buble and others that invades the malls and restaurants; the smell of pumpkin spice.. I don't personally like to drink or eat it but I love the smell; Gifts and reunions; and did I say turkey yet? MMmmm TURKAAAAY!!!!


I gotta say, I'm pretty excited for this new year to come. Not only am I starting it fresh again, I'm able to say that I get to start it with a few new great additions in friends & family. Every year is different and I'm curious to see how this up and coming year will turn out. Every single one of my girls are going into this new year with a boyfriend and usually I would complain and say they've all abandoned me (bitter side speaking) but I'm really happy for them, being that they've got great guys with them. Y'ALL MAKE ME SICK!


A few more birthdays coming up before the new year.. Jr, you better be eating up plenty bread because you and I both know that you won't be walking out of the club on your birthday; growing up so quick, it scares me sometimes when I forget how old you are. MR's next.. we've seen each other grow since babies, can't wait for your annual princess day!! BG, you better be bringing your ass down here for a night of unspoken wild festivities! Hookman, which I'm sure will be kept quiet; and of course, yours truly. What to do, where to go and what to drink... who knows... but we aaaall know it's always a fun, messy, shit show! I AM SO EXCITED!!


A word from the wise (HAH), let's roll with punches. Take what you've got, good or bad and work with it. If you feel that it is something worthwhile, keep at it until you get what you want. If it's not worthwhile, fuck it up the ass and leave it for the vultures.. they're always hungry.


Family first;
Money second;
Bitches last.


And always smile at the bitches who hate on you, they love that shit .
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So maybe I’m a masochist.. I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave.



LET'S GO 2011!! IM READY FOR YA!!


Some NYC pics perhaps?







KK BOUNCE BITCHES!