I believe in love. I believe in lust. I believe in loyalty. I believe in us. I believe in happiness. I believe in friendship. I believe in me. I believe in you. I believe that good things will come to those that are positive and patient. I believe in giving respect where respect is due. I believe in working for what you want in life. I believe that all good times balances itself with bad times. I believe that everyone should experience a crush more than once in life. I believe that butterflies in our stomach keeps us young. I believe in Mr. Right. I believe in Mr. Right Now. I believe that Mr. Not Right should be appreciated for showing you what you don't want in a man. I believe in retail therapy. I believe in sisterhood. I believe that looks can get you far. I believe that smarts can get you further. I believe in living a life you won't regret. I believe that death is bittersweet. I believe in trusting yourself. I believe in trusting others...
But with all that said; I don't believe in stupidity. I don't believe in bull shit. I don't believe in putting up with stupidity or bull shit. And I don't believe in being fake or those who are fake.
So please, if you see me and I clearly don't want to put up with your shit; GOOOO THAAAT WAAAAYYY.
:)
Anyways,
Tank's album "Now or Never" is amazing! His voice and his music reminds me of that old school R&B days..
Go out and buy it or just... iNDULGE
BUT MORE RECENTLY LEAKED... so in love with this one!
"Every woman has the exact love life she wants. When you're ready to let go, to be un-single and un-miserable, you will. Till then..." - The Wedding Date.
As women, it is within our nature to be a little more melodramatic than men when it comes to certain life situations; don't deny it ladies, you have all spoken about life and love with an unnecessary amount of exaggeration and volume with your girls - it's alright, I'm just as guilty of this trait as you are.
You vent to your girl friends about fights and complications in great detail ad nauseam because it is the best form of therapy you could possibly have, especially knowing that their support and understanding will always be there, as well as their blunt honesty. You learn to listen to how others think, how you will have to accept that there will be various opinions and insights to your problems and that you, yes you, may not always be right. No, your reaction does not make you completely crazy... just.. out of line; BUT, men are just as wrong as we are so don't think I'm bashing on you, it's just easier for me to write this in a female's perspective.
It is common for one to sit and pick at a failed relationship after the fact. You begin to question what happened, what went wrong, what could've been done to prevent the damage, what could be done to saviour it and how you wish you could've went at it differently. You, also, begin to replay every event that has happened between the two of you, from the little insignificant moments to the great sacred moments. You begin to pick up traits of being bipolar and grow tired of this relentless battle within your head that all you want to do is find a way to be happy. The emotional side within the right half of your brain hangs on to all the memories, conversations, harboured feelings and thoughts of things returning, while your realistic side within the left half of your brain is telling you to let go and move the fuck on. Sound familiar?
With all that being said, realistically, none of it matters - it's all completely irrelevant. You can be there with all your friends, complain and tell the same stories you did yesterday verbatim and it still wouldn't change a thing. You are, both, at fault and not at fault for thinking, feeling and being the way you are; you can not help the way you feel. As long as you understand the fact that you will be as miserable as you want to be until you are ready to let it all go, then you will understand that you can be just as free and happy as you want to be when acceptance and the right time comes.
It's all a process of healing, accepting and realizing the truth, and the truth of the matter is, you are in control of the events within your life; of what will become your past, of what is to happen in your present, and of what will prevail in your future. You are your own god; the maker of all the good and the bad in your life; the writer of your own story. Become you and make your life happen.
I've always said to myself, "I can't wait for the day to come where you are just another guy to me..", the day I started to realize that it was happening - I was caught in the in-between. It's a bittersweet feeling. I can feel it slipping away from me and part of me is slowly jumping with joy and relief while the other half is sad to let it go; but it doesn't matter, for I am seeing it all so clearly - that it wasn't meant to be and he doesn't want a part of it anymore. It's okay. You meet someone, you grow on each other, you fall, shit happens, shit ends and you move on - it's life. I'm slowly reaching the point of self-liberation and I can't wait to get there. I say self-liberation because the only one controling my happiness and the only one I'm fighting with is myself. When I get there, I will wish you nothing but the best in love, life and happiness because that's truly all I want for you. Laugh, smile and have fun.. you deserve it.
And so, as I come to an end with my ranting, I hope you all understand that everything you go through in life; with every reaction, thought and lesson learned; it is all normal and okay if you learn to accept it for what it is and deal with it all in your own time, in your own way and in the healthiest manner possible. After all, we are only human.. and sometimes, we get a little crazy. Smile and laugh to the good times and accept that there will be bad times; and remember, there is always light at the end of the tunnel, just don't ever doubt or give up on yourself.
That's all for this week folks, hope you enjoyed this one. Until next week!
First blog of 2011; It's a new year, I'm a new age and it's a new opportunity for life experiences! I hope you all had a great night bringing in the new year and I hope that this year will be even better than the last for you.
So far, it's been an eventful first week of January. New Years eve was fun at Atlantis, we had a hilarious journey back home after and we were surrounded by the ones that mattered so it was a good night. Girls night out, guys night in, and just recently.. my birthday :) A great night filled with positive energy, close friends, good music and plenty of bottles of alcohol... and I mean plenty. I can honestly tell you that it was one of our best nights out, and not just for me, for absolutely everyone who attended. There wasn't any anger, any drama or any hostility - just a bunch of smiling faces having fun while dancing their drunken asses off. Perfect night. Shout out to all the guys who came out and to all my girls who made it everything it was. Happy birthday to HC, E, Keke & JUST BE CUZ.. Happy birthday to all my sexy Capricorns, get it in bitches!
With so much happening in life, you tend to forget about the simpler things. I hate being reminded of things that I should always know with tragedy, but sometimes that's the only way to snap back. Lost a co-worker last night, who was my other co-worker's long term partner, in an accident. All I can think about is how much pain and heartbreak she's going through with such a tragic loss. My heart goes out to her.. Our lives are so fragile, so easily taken away from us and we seem to always lose sight of what matters the most and what to cherish everyday - don't wait until it's too late. Don't live with regrets. Don't argue over stupidity. Don't wait for nothing. Don't jump to conclusion. Don't settle for less. Don't let life pass you by. Do what you have to do to make your life worthy - you are capable of having everything you want if you go for it.
So it is time for me to grow, to let go, and to become. Clear out that old baggage and start fresh - with "new bones in your closet" - like Aaliyah said. I'm really tired of the same shit so I'm really going to try and change things - everything just seems like a long never ending story that needs to end. I hate being the last one to fuck off on shit, SO.. I am going to do my best to not fall to my weakness and stand with my strength. And I hope some miracle helps me because I've yet to do what I know is best for me; probably because i'm an idiot who won't listen to my own conscience. This person I've become, makes me sick lol.
Anyways, I'm going to end this post with a few pics from New Years and my birthday. I'm living the life I want to live and I'm happy. Thank you to all that makes my life and happiness possible. Shout out to the menz, shout out to my girls, shout out to those who have helped me grow.. && shout out to my stalkers who love my dick. Yes, I said. Choke on that, tricks :)
